"I just thought whatever i assumed was the right thing. I always thought those thoughts in my dreams were actual facts and reality. Being so naive i took it all in and now i'm crushed. Nobody but me is to be blamed. Things like this shouldn't be based on my assumptions. I should have, could have but i didn't. Stupid is a word i could use but i guess i'm better than that. Oh well, lesson learnt, never force things, challenges and tests might arise, i just gotta keep myself grounded."

-muhd Hafiz-

"Ashes started falling like snow as i slowly watched you go."

Haven't posted anything in AGES omg.... So what's been happening lately? Past 2 weekends were spent volunteering for the National Schools..... NSSCC. It was so awesome, i made tons of new friends and i ate basketfuls of durians. Oh well,when in rome do like the romans do. It so happened i was in durian land. :-D. Yay!

Alrighty, i'm still the same old me no matter how hard i try to change me. Somehow i feel like i'm not me. And there's nothing i can see. Anyway, my arms and back hurt from sunburns attained while tearing down the wall just now. Hope Zaid uploads the video soon.


"I feel like i'm falling back to where i came from. Up top the sun shines brightly, the flowers bloom beautifully, birds flying freely in the sky. Ecstasy rushes in the streams of blood of the lovers. Shut the door and you'll finally see, the window only holds certain frames. These frames picture what i would like to see. Close up all and you'll actually know how i really feel. No distractions, no confusion. Live like a tom who does nothing but peep. Too scared to show up and talk..."



Creep up behind the walls

nothing there but darkness.

Slowly it shrouds the glass

Swallowing me its like a sickness.

*What do i want?*

**I love your eyes
They're glued to the table
I walk past though you're not looking
Hiding behind the wall
Sights set on you
The question keeps bugging me,
When will i be lucky in love? **

Muhd Hafiz-*-*-*

To What It may concern..

Can someone please lift this curse off from me. It really hurts when time and again it pulls me in, then spits me out like a python. Put a bullet in my head. Cut my passage, just do anything so long as you dont hurt me so much. This has been ongoing for the past few years. I'm not sure who or what you are but you really need to leave me alone. I need my life back. please, sure i could take it, a year maybe two but 3 or 4, it's way too much. Even heroes crack down. I'm just saying, help me, let me be free. I apologise if anything was ever done to offend anything or anyone but i believe my retribution is already enough.. I'm starting to crap right now but, seriously, LEAVE!!!


Yours Truly,
Muhd Hafiz.

I just finished catching such an awesome movie. A lot like love. Can't get it out of my head. "You're not ready for love if you're not prepared to sound dumb." Sounds like something which happened before uh? Dols, remember on the bus, something about nuts. On the way back on 23 from Bugis? :-). Yeah dumb much.

Okay, its almost that time of the year again. Dont say sorry cause it happens every year,im used to it and it's really numb. To say it doesnt pain me would be lying so i'm saying i've been numbed after a while. Well not a while, it's been a long long time. So i'm just saying, dont drop hints or say sorry. Just live on.

I'm not being emo or shit, i'm just being me. I know it's not much i can do, i know i should tell you but it'll make me regret cause the tie we have now matters so much to me. Open my mouth and i'll be shot. Keep it closed and i'll live without knowing if i even had a chance. The medicine's making me real drowsy now but i know exactly what i'm feeling. I just dont know whether it will be. :-(.

I dont know how to put it in sentences... Just read on. Thank you so much for reading. Ps, Siva, dude, i appreciate you knowing man :-). Dont worry about the sms.


i tell myself i could live with it
now its eating the inside of me.
it's a feeling i myself can't explain
not confessing was such a pain.
i thought i'll wait
just for the right time and place.
now i wonder if it'll ever arrive,
what ifs flood my mind
i'm not even sure if i'm fine.
i could roll the dice but,
we all know where it'll bring me.
1,2,3
4,5,6
its unclear to me,
if i'll be one of your picks.
now i'm done,
ending it all just with a click...


Thanks for reading through, i really appreciate it. :-). i think 450 a month is reasonable.


Arrivederci~,
Muhd Hafiz
ps, i'm really in love?

I've been cursed and blessed through the years. I've stopped playing rugby for a long time. I love playing basketball. I'm a proud malay. I need to make more friends. I enjoy playing the guitar, i enjoy playing the drums. I lost all the links when i changed my skin. :( Tag me i'd gladly link. :-). I love my folks alot! I'm unpredictable. I love to joke. Ilove PEOPLE! I hope it's reciprocal though...hmmm. Erm.... Let's talk about YOU! :-) bolditalicsunderlinestrikeout

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